But we will be magnificent.
Got a little tear from me, Ox!





Hugs, it is good that you keep an eye on your moods and phases, I hope it stays under control.
Have you ever tried moon cake?



"Do you miss Carcosa?"
Ox did not answer immediately, leaning against her in the park bench they sat in; obviously, it was not going to be a simple answer. It was a little after five, and the sun was coming down on the promenade. The view across the harbour of Mei Sing island was a spectacular array of buildings from this perspective. A ray of light shone upon Ox's face, making him look particularly beatific. "It's ah, a little complicated." She poked him in the ribs. "I gathered. It's a complicated question for me too, y'know." There were fewer people here than in the city proper, and the park featured long paths and exercise equipment. She could see runners doing their laps down the trail. Finally, Ox spoke.
"I miss parts of it. I miss the thrill of danger, the satisfaction of a job well done, and, as always, I miss the camaraderie and closeness of being with friends. I could do without the rest, to be honest. What about you?"
"I love doing my job, for one. Seeing my stalkers come home safe and alive, of course. The feeling of being away from... you know. And I'm really happy to have you right beside me." To punctuate this, she kissed him on the cheek. Ox smiled.
"Now for the horrible part. I don't miss the death. The warfare. The monsters out of your worst nightmares."
"The feeling when one of mine doesn't make it out of the field. The shitty food. The heartbreaks and the losses that have added up over the years."
Ox turned his head to look at her, and his gaze wavered a moment.
"We can't do this forever, Sim."
Hey again, Bees!
A quiet Sunday was punctuated by a massive workout in the gym.
It was Leg day (groan), so here are the details.
Squats: 105 x 3, 110 x 3. Ugh. Tough, but doable, and gelled fairly well.
Front Squats: 75 x 3. Ironically, even tougher than the squats themselves. Let's see how 80 goes.
Bulgarian Split Squats: 22 x 4. Building up to five rep sets.
Lying Leg Curls: Top set of six reps at 50 kg. Ugh.
Body Extensions: Top set of 15 reps.
So lots of tough lifts today, but I'm glad I got it done. Probably won't feel that way tomorrow though:
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We saw a kitty today! It was the grocery store kitty. But I didn't capture any pics. It was getting lots of attention from passersby.
Had yummy cha chaan teng food for dinner. I don't know how to say any of the dishes in English, but trust me, they were yum out of 10.
Going to take tonight off to do some gaming, though I have more work later in the week.
Hope your weekend's been great, Bees!
October Spookies #2: Tonight's spooky October movie is the Night of the Living Dead Remake (1990).
This is the film that forever cemented my fascination with zombies. It was showing on HBO, and I must've watched it age 14 or so. At the time, I did not know that this film was a remake of the more seminal original, and even now, I couldn't care less. The idea is simple: Barbara, a buttoned-up young woman goes with her brother Johnny to pay their respects to their deceased mother in a cemetery. However, things get very out of hand, and Barbara, searching for help, finds herself trapped in a house with several other survivors: they are beset by strange ghouls that consume flesh. Will they ever make their way out?
It's a gory, taut, suspenseful and a surprisingly insightful view on how, in crisis, we humans refuse to get along. But I will forever remember the zombies: slow, shuffling, eerie, and almost totally unstoppable. They're an inexorable menace, and not the most interesting idea ever, but the way situations revolve around them has always been intriguing (this was explored in more detail in Dawn of the Dead). I've had a love of zombie movies ever since, and it's been an absolute joy to see the genre evolve. And then the Resident Evil series on the Playstation came along and into my life but that... is a story for another day. For now, NotLD (1990) was my first introduction to a monster that refused to die: both on the screen, and in my imagination.
Playing: More Hope 01. Beat another boss in a particularly hair-raising and hairy encounter (the boss had no hair, actually...) There's still more of the map to explore, so my adventures aren't quite over.
Also purchased, on a whim, Dreamspring, which seems to be very highly recommended. Of all the games that are discounted and available on Steam right now, only this one caught my eye; maybe it's a sign of sorts.
Watching: Same old. HotD. Haven't watched Invincible today. Will try to resume Late Night Cinema tonight, if I don't conk out first.
Listening to: Paul Romero - Celeste (Might and Magic VII soundtrack). While limited by the fashions of the time and the limitations of the medium, (game soundtracks were usually audio from a CD), I found this one positively transcendent. Pun not intended. It really does capture the feeling of what it would be like to enter Heaven.
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