Friday 12/12/25:
  • No formal workout.
  • Walked 13,863 steps total.
  • Completed 50 pushups for ornament challenge (2 x 25)
Saturday 12/13/25
  • No formal workout.
  • Attended a breakfast with Santa fundraiser event; I sat with my five-year-old son, as well as my daughter and son-in-law and grandson; I ran around with my grandson, chasing him, hopping like a frog and "flying" around him like an airplane.
  • 12,482 steps
  • 150 pushups for ornament challenge (6 x 25)
 
Finally got a strength workout in at the school fitness center yesterday. It wasn't much because I only had about 15 minutes.

Superset
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Incline bench press (dumbbells) -- 80 lbs (two 40s) three sets to failure (15, 13, 8)
Lat pulldowns (cable) -- 120 lbs, three sets to failure (12, 10, 7)

I've been allowing myself to have a few emotional breakdowns while watching the music video for "Silence" by The Plot in You. I'm finding so many details every time I watch it, and I feel like it says so much about depression and being trapped in trauma. Plus, it's just filled with haunting imagery. I'll link it below, but it comes with a trigger warning.

I'm curious what you think after watching it. I've only really talked to one other person about it.

 
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One of the practices that I love to use in place of making a New Year's Declaration is naming the year. It creates a sort of lens through which I focus my actions and goals for the year. I have decided to name 2026 The Year of the Forge. I wrote this (only slightly cringe) statement to guide me:

"2026 will be the Year of the Forge for me as I get one year closer to 50. Time to burn away the excuses, discard the slag of habits that no longer serve me, and hammer strength into the habits that continue to grow me as a man, a husband, and a father. Forging is not only about fire and hammer--it is also cooling and tempering. I will plunge the blade into stillness, as well, through meditation, recovery, silence, and solitude, hardening my spirit as I make savage the body and make still the mind. This year, I will be forged by both flame and water, shaped by effort and tempered by rest, until I emerge sharper, stronger, and more resilient than ever before."

Starting in 2026, I plan to split my challenge goals into two parts: Fire/Hammering and Cooling/Tempering. This may also appear as Savage Body and Still Mind, inspired by the Man Uncivilized tenet #4: Make still the mind, make savage the body.
 
:pompom: Congratulations on your ornament!
Congratulations on earning your Dragon Crystal!

Thank you all. I had to break up the pushups and try different types, but I am proud that I got them done!

Yesterday, I felt the urge to work on arms, so I completed the following:

Bicep curls (dumbbells): 35 lbs x 10, 25 lbs x 20, 25 lbs x 16 (failure)
Triceps extension (machine): 100 lbs, all sets to failure (12, 10, 9)

Superset:
Preacher Curl (Machine): 45 lbs, all sets to failure (10, 6, 5)
Triceps Pushdown (rope): 45 lbs, all sets to failure (8, 8, 8)
 
I've been allowing myself to have a few emotional breakdowns while watching the music video for "Silence" by The Plot in You. I'm finding so many details every time I watch it, and I feel like it says so much about depression and being trapped in trauma. Plus, it's just filled with haunting imagery. I'll link it below, but it comes with a trigger warning.

I'm curious what you think after watching it. I've only really talked to one other person about it.
I just now watched it. (A few days after reading your comment -- needed to find the right time.)

I ... see what you mean. My eyes are leaking. I'm not sure why.

Thank you.
 
I just now watched it. (A few days after reading your comment -- needed to find the right time.)

I ... see what you mean. My eyes are leaking. I'm not sure why.

Thank you.

Thank you for watching it. I wasn't sure why the first time, either, because the emotions came so quickly. Now, though, after re-watching it several times, I'm starting to understand why (at least for myself; it's a very personal experience).
 
Ugh, it has been a wild few weeks. The holidays were mostly good with plenty of time with family and friends, but it was far from restful or stress free. I don't have time to go into all the details here (nor do I want to), but I'm back and ready to get after it again. We got a new puppy, so my schedule has been off the past few weeks, as well. That's not an excuse as much as a reason.

Here are some goals updated for the start of 2026:

STRONGER GOALS:
  • Follow Recomp training plan (might consider just following the Recomp Challenge if time becomes an issue)
FASTER GOALS:
  • Run for at least 30 minutes two days a week (likely T & TR)
  • Weekend long trail run (at least 5 miles)
SMARTER GOALS:
CALMER:
  • Meditate or sit in contemplative silence for at least 15 minutes daily
  • Practice pausing and breathing fully in moments of stress
  • Chat with Ash when I need a moment to express strong emotions.
 
Whew. It's both fun and rough getting back at it after the holidays, but I made it. I managed to complete my Secret Santa workouts, but my Santa remains a mystery. I loved the story and how the workout started with meditation and some primal/animal movement.

I also enjoyed the many jump tucks and burpees and squats that I had to do for my giftee's workout, but man, I'm wore out now from all that dodging and cleaning. 😜
 
I went to Goodreads and set my 2026 reading goal to 25, which is very manageable even with my busy life. I also chose books for the Book Riot Read Harder Challenge:
  1. Read a microhistory: Coal: A Human History by Barbara Freese
  2. Read a book featured on a “best book covers” list: Catch-22 by Joseph Heller
  3. Read a YA book by a Latine author: Home (issues 1-5) by Julio Anta
  4. Read a novel with a main character who uses they/them pronouns: A Prayer for the Crown-Shy by Becky Chambers
  5. Read a nonfiction book about resistance: A People’s History of the United States by Howard Zinn
  6. Read a gothic novel published in the last ten years: Mexican Gothic by Silvia Moreno-Garcia
  7. Read a sports book by a woman, trans, or nonbinary writer: One Life by Megan Rapinoe :v:
  8. Read a classic from the Zero to Well-Read Podcast: Their Eyes Were Watching God by Zora Neale Hurston
  9. Read a romantasy book with a queer and/or BIPOC main character: The House in the Cerulean Sea by TJ Klune
  10. Read a book recently adapted for film, TV, or musical: Frankenstein by Mary Shelly
  11. Read a book by a d/Deaf author: Girl at War by Sara Novic
  12. Read/try a recipe from a cookbook about a culture whose food you’ve never eaten: Foods from Nigeria
  13. Read a nonfiction comic: Persepolis by Marjane Satrapi
  14. Read a work of magical realism or fabulism: One Hundred Years of Solitude by Gabriel Garcia Marquez
  15. Read a book by a librarian: Sister Outsider by Audre Lorde
  16. Read a queer picture book: A Church for All by Gayle E. Pitman :v:
  17. Read a book about a cult or cults: Bunny by Mona Awad
  18. Read a nonfiction book about AI or social media: Weapons of Math Destruction by Cathy O’Neil
  19. Read a book by an intersex author: An Unkindness of Ghosts by Rivers Solomon
  20. Read a book set in space: Descender by Jeff Lemire
  21. Read a genre (SFF, horror, mystery, romance) book in translation: Frankenstein in Baghdad by Ahmed Saadawi
  22. Read a nonviolent true crime book: Catch Me If You Can by Frank Abagnale
  23. Read a book by an African author: Homegoing by Yaa Gyasi
  24. Pick a challenge from any of the previous years’ challenges to repeat! -- Read a nature book: Braiding Sweetgrass by Robin Wall Kimmerer)
I'll edit this post with checkmarks :v: as I complete each challenge category. I have already completed one.
 
1/10/26

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STRONGER:

Worked out at a local YMCA with my friend Mike. First time in the gym in close to two months. Set some PRs.
  • Kettlebell swings: 2 x 25 (40 lbs)
  • Kettlebell shoulder press: 1 x 20 (10 per side) (40 lbs)
  • SkiErg: 1 minute
  • Preacher hammer curls: 1 x 20 (10 per arm) (25 lbs)
  • Cable Lat pulldown: 3 sets (10, 8, 8) (90 lbs)
  • Preacher curls (barbell): 4 sets to failure (50 lbs x 8, 45 lbs x 9, 40 lbs x 11, 35 lbs x 10)
  • Butterfly (pec deck): 3 sets, 2nd and 3rd to failure (70 lbs x 15, 80 lbs x 12, 90 lbs x 16). PR heaviest weight, highest volume, best 1 rep max
  • barbell bent over row: (90 lbs x 10, 100 lbs x 10, 110 lbs x 6)
On My Way Running GIF by Mission: Impossible


FASTER:
  • No formal speed/running workout today
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SMARTER:
Sitting Down Fat Cat GIF by TikTok


CALMER:
  • sat in contemplative stillness for 15 minutes
  • spent some time on the GoalQuest app setting goals and "heroic habits"
Oh, also, I'm growing out my beard. I've kept my face mostly shaved nearly all of my adult life aside from a mustache that I let grow a few times. My wife isn't a fan of the beard feel when I kiss her, but she admitted that at my age I probably look better with a beard. She bought me a beard kit with beard wash, oil, and balm, as well as a comb. My daughter and son-in-law got me a beard trimmer and groomer for Christmas.
 
11 January 2026:

STRONGER:
  • No formal workout, but I carried some luggage down from the attic, helped my wife fill them with clothes (we're packing early for a cruise coming up in March), and carried them back up into the attic.
FASTER:
  • No formal speed/running workout today.
SMARTER:
CALMER:
  • Sat in quiet stillness for 15 minutes
  • Worked through some challenges on the GoalQuest app. GoalQuest asked a series of questions to determine what my "alter ego" is in four categories: joy, health, family, work. I laughed out loud after learning that my health alter ego is a 50/50 split between "Outdoor Health Adventurer" and "Balanced Mind-Body Yogi." Some examples of other "Outdoor Health Adventurers" include Indiana Jones, Hawkeye, Tarzan, Legolas, and Geralt of Rivia. Examples of "Balanced Mind-Body Yogis" are Aang, the Dalai Lama, Doctor Strange, and Yoda.
  • Downloaded a game called My Leisure Time. I have to confess something: When I first downloaded the game and started playing it, I had two juxtaposing feelings. First, I wrestled with some thoughts that the game was "girly," built mostly from deeply rooted biases about what that word even means. Second, I was almost instantly attracted to the cozy, relaxed vibe of the game. It is essentially a home design game but within this "slow life" community and has the cozy vibe animation of other games of this type, which is why I'm putting this under "Calmer" because it successfully relaxes me.
 
I'm still here, fellow 'bees. It's been a rough few weeks mental health-wise. If you keep up with the news in the US, then you know. I have tried to switch off to give myself a break, but fucking hell (apologies if we're not supposed to cuss in these posts, please feel free to censor me if not). I'm so fucking angry because I feel so helpless. I'm trying to focus on what I can influence, but fucking hell, they killed someone else, and people are like, "Well, he shouldn't have had a gun." It's that dismissive attitude and victim blaming that breaks my heart and fucking infuriates me. Sure, I get frustrated with the news when they spin a story, but it's the news and happens all the time. I get annoyed with and angry at politicians when they lie, but they're politicians, so sometimes lying just comes with the job, I guess. But when people I know personally blame the victim and dismiss the horror of what happened, it infuriates me because it hurts my heart, especially when I know nothing I say will changes their hearts. I re-watched the video from the lady in the pink coat and finally broke down in tears as she screamed, "What the fuck did you just do?" and felt like that questioned encompassed so much more that the present issue.

It's not all negative, though. I talked with my friend who is also a pastor, and we share the view that hope is our only weapon right now. Another friend believes that the solution is a Terry Pratchett style of "militant decency." I love that. Here in WV, a member of our legislature is trying to push a bill trying to criminalize giving an undocumented person a ride (i.e,. if my neighbor needs a ride to the store or to a doctor appointment, if he is undocumented I would be committing a crime). The language of the bill even refers to it as "trafficking," making the "crime" and the consequence even more severe. If my neighbor needs a ride, I'm giving him a ride. I'm not asking for his papers first. There is a gentlemen less than a mile from me who walks over 2 miles to work several days a week. This week, the temperatures were dangerously low, so I offered to give him a ride to and from work since schools have been closed due to weather. He's an American citizen, but even if he wasn't, the guy does not need to be walking in dangerously low temperatures if someone is able to give him a ride. I've learned this week that he has MS and epilepsy, so he is unable to drive. He moved to WV from California after an ugly divorce and has no family here. He needs help. Let someone try to tell me not to help my neighbor. Let someone try to tell me that it is illegal to be kind and helpful and decent. Fuck that.

Anyway, workouts have been sparse but still existent. Being stuck at home and keeping five children focused on virtual schoolwork while being available for my students has been a task. I went to the gym today for the first time in over a week and got a quick but effective strength workout. I'll on the uphill rise, I think, mentally. I'm still working through the Read Harder Challenge. I'm reading Persepolis, but I've also started reading The Cost of Discipleship by Dietrich Bonhoeffer because something about reading a book written by a man who actively opposed the church's support of Hitler and the Nazi party just seems appropriate right now.
 
Thank you for reaching out to help your neighbour. I think in the shitstorm you (and all of us, really, but especially US citizens right now) are living in, helping one another is one of the most important acts of resistance you can engage in.
 

I started watching Vinland Saga, and wow, it's incredible. Frustrating as hell and heartbreaking, but dammit, I love it. You may not be surprised to learn that I was particularly drawn to the character Thors Snorresson. I've decided to theme my new challenge after Vinland Saga, specifically channeling Thors and his blend of raw strength, steady endurance, and calm mental fortitude.

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1. Physical Fitness: Thors’ Strength & Power Training
Thors was a man of immense physical power and endurance, training with natural and practical tools. Your equipment fits perfectly for a functional Viking warrior workout focusing on strength, stability, and endurance. For this aspect of the challenge, I will follow the Recomp plan:

GOAL: Complete every workout in the weekly plan for 30 days, progressively increasing resistance or reps to build measurable strength and endurance using bands, kettlebells, log, and bodyweight.
  • Monday: Upper Body Strength/Core Workout
  • Tuesday: HIIT or Running
  • Wednesday: Lower Body Strength/Core Workout
  • Thursday: Metabolic Conditioning (MetCon)
  • Friday: Morning -- HIIT or Running, Evening -- Full Body Strength
  • Saturday: Active Recovery, 12,000 steps/Mobility routine
  • Sunday: Active Recovery, 12,000 steps/Yoga
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2. Mental Health: The Calm Strength of Thors
Thors was not only physically strong but mentally composed, a calm force in chaos. This part nurtures mental resilience, focus, and emotional balance.

GOAL: Practice daily meditation, journaling, and gratitude for at least 10 minutes each day, completing a minimum of 5 sessions per week over 30 days to enhance mental resilience and calmness.
  • Daily Practice (15 min):
    • Meditation: Visualize Thors’ calm before battle — steady breath, grounded presence
    • Journaling: Reflect on moments of inner strength or challenges faced today
    • Gratitude: Write 3 things that gave you strength or peace today
  • Weekly Mental Challenges:
    • Stoic Reflection: Read a quote or passage about courage or calm resolve (e.g., Marcus Aurelius, or Viking sagas) and write your interpretation
    • Nature Connection: Spend 30 minutes outside, unplugged, observing nature’s steady rhythms — like the unyielding Viking spirit
    • Creative Expression: Sketch or write about what strength means to you, inspired by Thors
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3. Nutrition: Fuel Like a Viking Warrior
Thors would fuel his body with nutrient-dense, sustaining foods to maintain strength and stamina.

GOAL: Consume whole, nutrient-dense meals with lean proteins, vegetables, healthy fats, and fermented foods at least 5 days per week, including one Viking-inspired meal weekly, consistently for 30 days.
  • Daily Guidelines:
    • Prioritize lean proteins (fish, poultry, eggs), root vegetables (carrots, beets, turnips), leafy greens, and whole grains (oats, barley, rye)
    • Include healthy fats like nuts, seeds, and fatty fish (omega-3s for brain and joint health)
    • Stay hydrated with water, herbal teas, and broth
    • Limit processed foods and refined sugars to maintain steady energy
  • Weekly Nutrition Challenges:
    • Prepare a hearty, Viking-inspired dish from scratch
    • Try a day of intermittent fasting or a light feast day to mimic Viking eating patterns
    • Incorporate fermented foods (sauerkraut, kefir) to support gut health and immunity
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4. Community & Accountability: The Viking Brotherhood

GOAL: Share progress and reflections with at least one accountability partner or group once a week and engage in 1-2 supportive interactions weekly for 30 days to build motivation and connection.
  • Share your progress and reflections with a friend or group
  • Tell your own “Thors saga” — moments of strength, perseverance, and growth
  • Celebrate your milestones with a restorative day or a nature hike, honoring Thors’ connection to the land
 
Saturday Feb. 7, 2026:

Goal 1: Physical
:v: Mobility: Morning mobility stretches for neck, back, shoulders, and hips/waist
:x: 12,000 steps (not even close; busy day around the house recovering from a winter storm; might get a higher amount by the end of the day)

Goal 2: Mental
:v: Meditation: Sat in quiet contemplation, looking out the window for 10 minutes.
:v: Journal: 5 minutes of free writing
:v: Gratitude: Recorded three things I am grateful for

Goal 3: Nutrition
:v: Breakfast: raisin and spice oatmeal (with added cocoa wheats), espresso zabaglione
:v: Lunch: shrimp scampi, spinach and onion, cheese sandwich with whole grain garlic toast and banana peppers
:v: Dinner: steak sirloin, sashimi roll with cucumber

Goal 4: Brotherhood
:v: Texted one of my workout buddies and confessed that I would not get my step count for today; he is under the weather, as well, and not able to get to the gym.
:v: Celebrated two "wins" for the week, which were staying consistent with daily workouts and movement during the winter storm and connecting my neighbor with a local Jewish faith community since he has no family or faith connections here.
 
Sunday February 8. 2026:

Goal 1: Physical
:v: Yoga: Morning Yoga Flow
:x: Steps: Only got 8,290

Goal 2: Mental
:v: Meditation: Sat in quiet contemplation for 10 minutes.
:v: Journal: 5 minutes of free writing
:v: Gratitude: Recorded three things I am grateful for

Goal 3: Nutrition
:v: Breakfast: maple and brown sugar oatmeal with added vanilla Greek yogurt and blueberries, espresso zabaglione
:v: Lunch: tuna salad made with cottage cheese, mustard, olive oil, dill on 21 grains and seeds bread
:v: Dinner: spicy chicken wrap, fries

Goal 4: Brotherhood
:v: Participated in a discussion on the Uncivilized Nation
:v: Watched a video by the group leader about ways to thrive as a man and common obstacles to thriving
 
After a five month absence, I have returned!

I have stayed active and busy with my kids, but I must confess I have lacked a consistent fitness and nutrition routine. Summer is almost to an end here, and I will soon be returning to the classroom. It's time to get serious again... or as serious as I can be, anyway.

I have started watching JJK, and like a lot of people, I am a huge fan of Todo. So, for this challenge, I will be channeling Todo and his joyful ferocity and intensity.

Jujutsu Kaisen Todo GIF


I'm turning this into a 40 day challenge, but my technical start date was this past Monday, July 20th, so the end date will be August 29th.

My ambitious goals are as follows:
  • Complete 4 strength sessions per week (Push, Pull, Arms, Legs) for 40 days, totaling 16 sessions by August 29.
  • Run two 5Ks every week for 40 days, completing 20 total 5Ks by August 29.
  • Complete one sprint interval workout per week for 40 days, totaling 5 sessions by August 29.
  • Complete at least one nervous‑system regulation practice daily for 40 days, totaling 40 practices by August 29.
  • Eat one whole‑food meal daily (or fast if not possible) for 40 days, totaling 40 whole‑food meals by August 29.
  • Lose 12 pounds (current weight 197 → target weight 185) by August 29 through consistent training, running, nutrition, and sleep.
  • Be in bed by 10:00 pm and wake by 5:00 am for at least 35 of the 40 days between July 20 and August 29.
  • Spend 10–20 minutes of focused quality time daily, plus one 30–60 minute weekly connection ritual, for 40 days.
  • Drink 138 oz of water daily for 40 days, totaling 5,520 oz by August 29.
  • Read 20 minutes daily for 40 days, totaling 800 minutes by August 29.

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Here is my training plan:

DayFocus
MonPush
(chest/shoulders/triceps)
Tue5k
+ evening breathwork
WedPull
(back/biceps/rear delts)
ThuSprint Intervals/Legs
(light leg work only)
FriArms
(bis/tris + maybe some shoulder accessories)
Sat5k Trail Run/Legs
+ nature time (kill two birds)
SunActive Recovery
at least 12,000 steps

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Daily Non-Negotiables (Every Single Day)​


  1. Water: 138 oz (start early, finish by 8pm so I'm not waking to pee)
  2. Bed by 10pm → Up by 5am (7 hours—solid)
  3. One whole-food meal (or fast)
  4. 20 min reading (this is already in my morning pocket)
  5. Quality time with your wife (my own "tall woman with a nice big ass") (intentional, undistracted—even 15 minutes of full presence counts)
  6. Nervous system practice: pick one per day from a menu (meditation, breathwork, time in nature, laughter, cold exposure, stretching, etc.)

The Todo “Boss Battle” Check-Ins​

Every 10 days (Days 10, 20, 30, 40), do a mini-assessment:
  • How’s my presence in workouts? Am I grinning or grimacing? Am I having fun, even when it's difficult?
  • One thing that’s working. One thing to adjust.
  • Celebrate something—even small.
 
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Today's workout: "Boogie Woogie" Arms & Shoulders

Tri-set 1:
  • barbell overhead press 75 lbs x 6
  • lateral raise 50 lbs (25 lbs per arm) x 12
  • face pull 30 lbs x 25 (three second squeeze with a big smile at the peak of each rep, like grinning in my opponent's face)
Tri-set 2:
  • preacher curl (machine) 60 lbs x 6
  • hammer curl 24 lbs (12 lbs per arm) x 12
  • cable bicep curl 15 lbs x 25 (three second eccentric)
Tri-set 3:
  • barbell close-grip bench press 85 lbs x 6 (three second eccentric)
  • triceps pushdown 45 lbs x 12 (three second eccentric)
  • cable overhead triceps extension 15 lbs x 25 (three second eccentric)
 
Okay, so... life happened... and it's been a rough few days.

Good news... I'm down to 193 lbs. Bad news... well, not terribly bad... I'm going to reset my challenge. Start day is today, so 40 days would be... September 5th. I'm skipping a formal workout today because I've made plans to meet a friend at the gym tomorrow morning. I plan to get plenty of steps in and might get a 5k run, so essentially I'm swapping today's for tomorrow's... something like that.