Okay so this is long overdue but thank you everyone!!! I really appreciate all your support
So I roleplay a lot, and when I first started I quickly realized that there's always that one player in a group who will only play abusive characters. Instead of leaving the group (I had friends!) I developed some strategies to recognize, avoid and/or de-escalate it (including an in-game restraining order at one point). Now sometimes in real life I think... if this conversation were a roleplay I'd shut it down in a hot minute, and I'm beyond bewildered why someone would playact being abusive out of character, like I get a game is a game and no harm done but... is it really that much fun it's worth wrecking a relationship in real life? (It's not as easy to shut it down in real life... but well, at least I've gotten somewhat better at not falling for it or into it.) So thankfully I've really been... totally okay. I mean, not recommended to seek out toxic roleplays deliberately, but when you roleplay often for leisure it's somewhat inevitable that there will be "situations" to manage.
Um when I say "okay"... I'm really okay, I just tried a new ADHD med, and was thoroughly reminded that my body cannot handle the side effects. So I'll just leave this as a mostly-funny-stories post, do the streak count, and then resume more detailed tracking hopefully tomorrow when I'm feeling a little better.
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Story one: I take down my yoga mat. Cat begins chirruping angrily. I don't know what she wants, but I know she loves to bump into me when I do yoga. So I started to pretend to do yoga to see what would happen - sure enough, she waits a few seconds and then begins winding around me, happy as a kitten. It was like drinking a happiness potion, it was so ridiculously funny that she knew what yoga was, wanted me to do it, and couldn't brush or bump into me unless yoga was happening. It's like yoga is a cat magnet. (Cardio is the polar opposite - she sits as far as possible, stares at me, and backs away if I approach her.)
Story two: A kid in my store proudly informed me he'd noticed something, and when I asked what: "I noticed that... when you buy something... THEN YOU HAVE LESS MONEY!" like he'd just invented physics or something. I told him he should be an accountant and spent the entire rest of the shift trying not to die of laughter.
Really hoping that with the not-for-me meds out of my system and a good night's sleep, I'll be back to normal. I might do a few days of the Recovery program if I'm still under the weather and need something easier to keep up the streak but we'll see.
Day #104 - #106