Ciao
@Damer
The people around me are not supportive of my fitness activities. I came to that conclusion because when I was at my best physique, no one cared to comment or commend me. I don’t know but I think they are just insecure. One of them said that my punches are soft, only to find out later that he was just jealous when I almost made my abs appear and everything about me was “almost perfect”, some of my officemates were secretly admiring me somehow (I don’t know, I hope they won’t be able to read this hahah!)…. And one of my officemates is his wife.
Yes, insecurities drive people around you to bring you down when you are at your best and bring you further down when you are at your worst. It is my personal experience with the people around me, at least when it comes to my weight.
During that time I feel very strong, especially in my arms and quads. I even said to my nephew that my quads can already kill someone by choking. When that man commented about my soft punches I replied by saying I could take him down in one strike. I felt bad saying that afterward because strength should not be used to harm (even if it is only a thought).
I am not proud to admit this but the bullies are one of the reasons that MOTIVATED me to better myself physically. I get bullied every single day because I am “soft”, and because I am gay. I did not start working out just to look more masculine and to stop the bullying. No! I started working out so that I could be strong and somehow give a message to the bullies to think twice before saying bad things to me, or else…. Hahahh! Because of that incident with that man who commented “soft” to my punches, I realized that bullies are bullies. There is no cure for them.
As I went on with making myself better physically, I kind of liked it and changed the reason from BULLIES to ME. Yes, first of all, we should work out for ourselves, not to show off, not for others, and not for bullies.
Thanks,
@Damer for that insightful video, it is so timely because waking up this morning and performing the max plank hold, I thought perhaps I made a mistake setting up my goal that high and target to surpass it with another second each day.
Reframe, back-up plan, control how I feel --- thanks for this!
Soh today, as usual, 300 push-ups, Level 3 of Day 21 - 60 Days of Cardio HIIT, and CORE STABILITY of STABILITY WORKOUTS COLLECTION which i started today, plus max plank hold 5:22.39 and 2:03.33. I did not read my book today because I went to another city. Oh, but i was still able to finish the last episode of BEEF.