Yeah. Things are really bad right now.

Consecutive Days: 50, technically

In truth I´ve just been doing Refresh first thing in the morning so I wouldn´t end my streak. Just like people who do the simplest Duolingo lesson every day to keep their streak.

Honestly I don´t know what wrong at the moment. There haven´t been any "big bads" in a while and yet I feel utterly miserable. The smell of decay is gone, it´s gotten a bit colder, I bought a couple of new Warhammer sets... And yet, I feel like I could just start crying any second. Not that I would, don´t even know how to cry anymore. I forgot how to feel a lot of emotions in the last 10 years. Maybe it´s because I haven´t had more than a single day off in a row for a while. Even though I work part time, I still work 8 hours shifts 5 days a week. Or it´s probably because I can´t stand the loneliness anymore, which is weird since I had more social contacts the last week than I had in the last 4 months. And yet, I´m lonely. It´s insane how you can miss something that you never had in your entire life, but I miss meaningful human interactions.

Everything is terrible right now.
I totally understand this feeling and always here for you and you are never alone in life you have got al of us to back you and you have got this!
 
Bloody hell, that hurts.

Consecutive Days: 63

30 Days of Cardio Light: Day 4: 3 sets, 60 seconds rest
60 seconds rest
Stomach Vacuums Day 3 : :v:

That sucked. Immensely. 30 DoCL was surprisingly brutal today, only got through sets 2 and 3 by using my "secret" power. At least that´s one thing I learned in 30 years, how to use that vast ocean of rage when I need it. Stomach Vacuums wasn´t any better. It always hurts, probably because I am pretty fat, so pulling my stomach in isn´t that easy, but today was worse than the days before. Brought back a lot of memories, like being stabbed in the gut that time those two idiot tried to rob me.
Yay, weekend shift. And the terrible "late shift saturday, early shift sunday" kind. At least I only have two days of work next week. Really gotta talk with my boss about the "schedule", it´s a mess. I´m pulling more shifts than at my last job, I work part time with 110-120 hours a month and somehow I have at least three 40 hour weeks a month? That´s not what I signed up for. Sure, I have a bit more cash each month than before, but what´s the point? I´d rather have some time for myself than having to deal with idiotic customers all day every day...
 
Consecutive Days: 64

30 DoCL: Day 5: 5 sets, 60 seconds rest
1 min rest
Exercise of the Day
1min rest
Stomach Vacuums Day 4: :v:
1 min rest
1 minute Jumping Jacks

Since I have the day off, I figured I could do a bit more than usual. Pain was much less than yesterday, sides hurt only a bit, but since yesterday afternoon my lower right shoulder hurts, right under the shoulder blade. But that´s less painful and more irritating than anything.
I´m not really feeling powered out yet, but my movements started to get less precise during the Jacks, so I´d say that´s enough for a day. Maybe. Might still throw in another quick workout or just random amounts of exercises later, who knows. Now that the heatwave has subsided, for now, I have much more energy. Always used to be a cold weather person, can´t stand the heat. Anything over 20 °C/68°F is just unbearable...
 
Urgh, I hate early shifts...

Consecutive Days: 66
30 DoCL: Day 7: 3 sets, 60 seconds rest
1 min rest
Stomach Vacuums Day 6 :v:

Barely made it through a single set. Shoulders still remain a major weak spot. Still, I´m gonna do my best to finish 30 DoCL and look for a dedicated upper body or shoulders programm then. Thought about adding shoulder or upper body workouts, but if I can barely manage my regular stuff, I shouldn´t add to that, lest I overexert myself and put myself out of commission, which would be incredibly stupid
 
Consecutive Days: 69

30 DoCL: Day 10: 3 sets, 60 seconds rest
1 min rest
Stomach Vacuums Day 9 :v:

I hate summer... It´s too hot. 30°C/86°F today. Tomorrow is supposed to be even worse, 35°C/95°F. Have I mentioned yet that I hate summer?
 
Consecutive Days: 70

30DoCL: Day 11: 5 sets, 60 seconds rest
1 min rest
Stomach Vacuums Day 10 :v:
1 min rest
30 seconds Jumping Jacks
1 min rest
Armageddon: 3 sets, 60seconds rest

Honestly, this feels like hell. Improvised a lot of anti heat measures today. Covered all windows with those silver anti freeze windshield blanket ( no idea how those things are called, don´t even know that in german :D), hung up moist towels... It´s working and much better than anticipated. It´s about 10°C cooler than it would normally be with those temperatures outside. Still way too hot...
 
Consecutive Days: 71

30 DoCL: Day 12: 3 sets, 60 seconds rest
1 min rest
Stomach Vacuums Day 11 :v:
1 min rest
Arms & Shoulders: 3 sets with EC

Managed to step onto a metal door stopper thingy yesterday and now have a bruise under my right sole. Which sucks tremendously. Why does crap like that always happen to me?
 
Consecutive Days: 74

Stomach Vacuums Day 14: :v:

Yeah, today is very much an off day... My tongue hurts since monday morning and I finally got a doctors appointment today, and apparently I managed to catch some kind of inflammation on the side of my tongue. Hurts a lot. Can´t eat, can´t drink, can´t talk, still gotta go to work though... That weird adhesive ointment I´m supposed to put on there is a mess too. A) I can barely reach the spot unless I grab my tongue with my other hand and almost rip it straight out ouf my mouth and B) that stuff is a lot like super glue and feels absolutely alien... And I´m way too dehydrated and weak from barely eating and drinking to do any meaningful exercise.
And to make matters worse, I can´t eat anything sweet or spicy. That´s literally the only thing I got going in my life! Eating things, everything else sucks. And now I can´t even do that for however long it takes to heal? Yeah, kill me now, this is not a life worth living...
 
Still here

Consecutive Days: 76

Yesterday:

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Today:

30 DoCL: Day 15: 3 sets, 60 seconds rest
1 min rest
Stomach Vacuums Day 15: :v:

Wasn´t really in any shape to do something more substantial yesterday. Been living off of water and soggy hardtack, which, surprise, sucks butt. I just wanna eat real food again, this is killing me...
 
Consecutive Days: 78

30 DoCL: Day 17: 3 sets, 60 seconds rest
1 min rest
Stomach Vacuums Day 17: :v:
1 min rest
Stopgap: 3 sets with EC
1 min rest
30 seconds/ 30 Jumping Jacks (turned out to be the same )

I´m back. I can finally eat again, although that inflammation wasn´t all bad. Lost 2kg in a week, now let´s just hope those stay gone...
The weather is going insane here. We´re basically stuck between a week long heatwave followed by a week of storms and heavy rain. On a loop. Probably for all eternity. Plus prognoses say we´re almost certain to get hotter temperatures than 40°C/104°F wednesday and thursday. Which is absolutely horrible.

And a big Thank You at my three most loyal readers @graoumia @aku-chan and @Fremen . Without you here, reacting to my posts every single day, I probably would´ve stopped working out long ago. Not that I don´t appreciate all you others that come here and leave a :u: ...
 
And a big Thank You at my three most loyal readers @graoumia @aku-chan and @Fremen . Without you here, reacting to my posts every single day, I probably would´ve stopped working out long ago. Not that I don´t appreciate all you others that come here and leave a :u: ...
We all need a little encouragement :)
 
Update for yesterday because I forgot

Consecutive Days: 80

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Yeah, I know. I said no more Refresh only days. But yesterday was an exception. I had the early shift so I had to get up at 5am, I couldn´t sleep because of general pre-work anxiety and because it was still way too hot inside, it was already over 30°C/86°F at 8 am, I basically got fried in my car on the way back from work (black car and there´s no shade at work where I could park so the interior temperature was 70°C/158°F, plus no air con in my car, only ventilation), got home, went to bed for a nap, woke up a 7pm, still 37°C/98,6°F outside... Basically, yesterday I was living in Hell.
 
Yesterday

Consecutive Days: 81

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Yes, I know what I said yesterday. But I am still feeling super exhausted. Good thing I finally got some vacation days coming, so hopefully I can rest and recharge a bit.

Today

Consecutive Days: 82

30 DoCL Day 19: 3 sets, 60 seconds rest
1 min rest
Stomach Vacuums Day 29: :v:

Feels like my arms are gonna fall off...
 
Started early today

Consecutive Days: 84

30 DoCL Day 21: 3 sets, 60 seconds rest
1 min rest
Stomach Vacuums Day 21: :v:
1 min rest
30 seconds Jumping Jacks

All that done before breakfast, not that I eat breakfast, but that´s semantics. I´m almost certain that I´m gonna add more exercise today, let´s see how that goes.
 
Yesterday Part II

2km Walk
10 min Elliptical

Wasn´t quite as much as I´d hoped

Consecutive Days: 85

30 DoCL: Day 22: 3 sets, 60 seconds rest
1 min rest
Stomach Vacuums Day 22: :v:

I hate those T Half Jacks...

Part II

Herald: 5 sets, 2 min rest

Yeah, didn´t expect to do another workout today, but I got bored and figured I could use some extra work on my weakest area :D
 
Yesterday Part II

2km Walk

Today:

Consecutive Days: 87

30 DoCL: Day 24. 5 sets, 60 seconds rest
1 min rest
Stomach Vacuums Day 24 :v:


Pffft. Finally it´s over. Stomach Vacuums were painful today again. But luckily 30 DoCL was an easy one today, needed an easy day. Not really feeling that great today, don´t know why. So back to bed for me, with my Switch playing Fire Emblem Three Houses.
 
Still there. Been really sick since I last postet here. No idea what, because when I went to the doctor she just said it might be malaria (which is utterly insane, there are no malaria mosquitos in northern germany) and just prescribed antibiotics, which wouldn´t even work against malaria anyway. No tests or anything. I absolutely hate her. My normal doctor is basically on vacation 24/7 and she shares the practice with him, so whenever he´s out all patients just get sent to her. That woman can not even diagnose broken bones!

Anyway, when I wasn´t lying in bed I tried to stay active. Slowly shuffeling about outside (taking a walk) and such. Today is the first time I actually managed to do any real exercise. Hopefully tomorrow I can build up on that

Consecutive Days: 99 (?)

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