@Laura Rainbow Dragon @Mamatigerj Thank you!! :morelove:

Laura Rainbow Dragon said:
Congratulations on your successful event, your service award, and completing Arms with Tunde!

I am certain the service award was well-deserved! From what you have told us, you do a lot for your SCA community!

Do you do heavy weapons fighting as well as the fencing?
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They told service award for renewing my Exchequer duties. To me it is just something I do, but it was still very cool to get recognized. We are a small group, a Shire, so we don't have a lot events for me to worry about. But overall, it is a thankless office. I've been to many events where the poor Exchequer can barely get a break to go to the bathroom or get stuck so far from everything. People are usually good at checking in on us, but you know, they get busy. Now this was before I was an Exchequer, where I could hold the table so that they can get a break, but I haven't had much opportunity to help in that regard. I don't get out of Shire as often as I should.

No, I don't do heavy armor combat. Just rapier fighting/fencing. Lol, I guess not just that. I do also shoot archery and make scrolls, both the calligraphy and illumination. Though, I haven't turned in any scrolls for quite some time. Something I'm hoping to change here in the near future, as it is really relaxing to me.
 
Ah. I was confused when you mentioned daggers and bucklers. Clearly I just don't know much about fencing.

Heavy weapons fighting never interested me due to the need to wear leather and pickle barrel and hockey helmets in hot weather. (Roller derby was bad enough in that regard. And there one only needs to cover head, elbows, wrists, and knees.) Fencing has always seemed more up my alley. But I've never had a chance to try it. (I'd probably find your protective gear to be a lot in a hot environment too. I really don't do well with heat.)
 
So, in SCA fencing, we can use a variety of different swords - rapier, katana, long sword, etc., as long as they're appropriately made and tipped. We also have off hands - bucklers, daggers, canes, cloaks, just about anything within reason. We can use double swords and double daggers.

Heavy fighting is cool, but I'm not sure I want my head ringing like a bell. I'm not afraid of bruises, but rapier feels like a natural extension of my previous training - dancing becomes footwork, taekwondo the basis for stances.
 
Oh and the heat, yeah, in my corner of the state/kingdom, it can reach 120°F, so we really don't practice too much during the summer and in the early morning in spring and autumn. And my kingdom just reduced armor requirements, so I could dress a little lighter. I just haven't adjusted my kit yet.
 
Syrius said:
Oh and the heat, yeah, in my corner of the state/kingdom, it can reach 120°F
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I would be lying on the ground, trying not to pass out.
Do you have grass there? Are you allowed to water lawns? I would be lying on the ground under someone's lawn sprinkler, trying not to pass out.
Who am I kidding? I would be like a vampire, shopping at 24hr grocery stores at 2AM and sleeping inside my air-conditioned home during the day.
I cannot even imagine functioning in 120°F.
 
Yeah, I try not to go outside on those days if I don't have to. Do all the errands as early as possible. But this is why I go for so many work walks. I have start acclimating to the weather as it changes or I am toast when I have field work in the summer. And the amount of water to stay hydrated is crazy.

There are places with grass, mostly the parks and people who insist on having a lawn. But we aren't in enough of a drought for there to be measures in place preventing the watering of lawns.
 
Monday, 3 March Wins: 133 days
:v: Journal
Steps: 5,356/7,040
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0500
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:v: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Foot rolly thingy

30 Days of HIIT 1 lvl 3 - NO MODS - I am not committed to this program at this time. I had a certain type of workout I wanted and this was the first one that I found that fit.
Everest 19
Post-Cardio Cooldown - 30 seconds on the front leg raises + EC
Hip Flexors 1 set as a cool down stretch - pose 1 held for 20-count on each side & pose 3 hugged each leg for a 10-count
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 8

Shelved for today:
Express Tone 10
30 Days of Change 25

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - I did training, even though I didn't really want to.
:v: Some ball foot rolling
:v: Evening Foot stretches

Well, it was a weird day. Hope the computer problems from today are resolved tomorrow.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Tuesday, 4 March Wins: 134 days
:v: Journal - lots of reflection today - I think I am a little depressed right now.
Steps: 4,744/6,710
:v: 10m of writing - but on a totally different story. Writing what my heart needs right now. Magic. Lots of magic.

First Things:
0440
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:x: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Foot rolly thingy

30 Days of Change 25 - with TOTALS protocol
> 40 thigh taps (40/100)
> 40 shoulder taps (40/200)
> 100 punches (100/200)
> 40 shoulder taps (80/200)
> 20 thigh taps (60/100)
> 40 shoulder taps (120/200)
> 100 overhead punches (100/100) :v:
> 40 shoulder taps (160/200)
> 40 thigh taps (100/100) :v:
> 100 punches (200/200) :v:
> 40 shoulder taps (200/200) :v:

Shelved for today:
Express Tone 10
30 Days of HIIT 2 - okay, whatever, this lives here now. If I don't do any of it in a week, I'll stop tracking it.
Everest 20
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 9

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - I am here and I am alive.
:x: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

I am so stressed. I feel like I can't even... ugh! Words are hard tonight, despite all the writing I've done today. I feel that I can't really plainly talk to anyone about the stress either. I mean, other than M. But I'll try to explain what I can. Sorry for being cagey.

Work stress is just through the roof. Will I still have a job here in the near future? My performance is being evaluated on against unknown criteria by unknown evaluators with what I suspect will be AI (and I have serious reservations about that) and it is killing me to even think that all I have done is coming down to this. I enjoy what I do. I don't want to lose it. But I am unwilling to bend my morals and ethics to make me sound better on paper, not that anyone has told me to do so. The sense of uncertainty is unbearable to me and having been struggling with it for over a week now, I know that it comes and goes. I want to trust that everything will be alright, but I know better than that.

But I journalled today. I did all the writing, and it told me that I am scared and alone. (Again, I have M, but we are both feeling isolated.) I am not good with either of those things. But I have to be. It is part of my job to be, to some extent. Which is the worst part, because the people at work don't seem to understand why I am so afraid, even though I can see some of them quaking in their boots, so to speak. Conversations have quieted. Everyone is trying to get more done. Our heads are down, and we are all desperately trying to pretend it is okay.

Do you want to know my big accomplishment today?

I helped plan a party for my shop. Because we are all in some serious need of morale boosting. I know that it isn't a lot, but I think it is what our souls need. A little comradery, a little good food, and hopefully a little laughter.

But was it productive?

Absolutely not, so I am beating myself up about it. Thus, feeding the vicious cycle of anxiety. Doesn't help the other thing that I have been doing so far this week is a ton of training, so nothing is really getting done there either.
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So here I am. Back here, just trying to do my best at something that I know has positive effects on me. Even if I did mod the protocol a little today, no more than 30 seconds break was taken at any point.
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On the writing front, I had scribbled down something at work. And it resonated with me. So, I brought it home and I typed it in, evolving it in that magical way as I found some better wording and what comes next. And what comes next promises me something great. Is it time to reinvent magic again? Is it time to let my stress out through the written word? I think so, because goodness knows, this is when I shine. Maybe this will fizzle out. Maybe it will be the bones of a better story, but one of hope and magic and who knows what else. But for me, it is the story that I need to tell. Well, Alina, it looks like you and I will find out together. Aofia and Ellery will have to wait until I figure out how I want to rework their story.
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Okay, I think that is enough for tonight. Please, all of you keep safe. Hug your loved ones. The world is a crazy place. I love you. :tuzki-love:

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Laura Rainbow Dragon said:
You did good this day, @Syrius . There is a lot of bad stuff happening around you and to you over which you have little-to-no control. But on the things over which you do have control, you did good. This matters.

:hug: :heartsit:
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:sadkitty: :hug: Thank you! I needed to hear that.
 
Thanks, friends, for all the hugs! :tuzki-love:

Wednesday, 5 March Wins: 135 days
:x: Journal
Steps: 12,006/6,320
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0445
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:v: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Foot rolly thingy

At work:
30+ minutes of walking = 30 Days of Change 26 Part 1, including
> P (Jon) - 20m 80s Walk
> P (Andy) - 10m Post Meal Walk
Standing Desk
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 10

At home:
Quick Warmup
30 Days of Change 26 Part 2 lvl 3
30 Days of HIIT 2 lvl 3
Express Tone 10 lvl 3 - 5 lbs - modified lunges to split lunges

Shelved for today:
Everest 20 - I was concerned that this would be too much, like it was last week when I also did high knees. I need to be able to walk a lot tomorrow.

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - I did the things
:x: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

Today was better, I suppose. I got some stuff done, I fought some good fights against someone who was trying to get me to fix something that is not my job to fix, and I didn't look at the news as much today. Oh, and I did the things. I almost procrastinated from the programs, but I couldn't let that be today. I had to do them, because I committed to doing them. I cannot improve without properly applying myself. Lol, and I am already feeling a little sore, but its a good sore. As long as I can still walk tomorrow for field work, everything will be alright!

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Thursday, 6 March Wins: 136 days
:x: Journal
Steps: 14,923/6,980
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0445
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:v: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Foot rolly thingy

All the walking
The Walk Episode 14 redo 100%
The Walk Episode 15 missed 3 scans, will have to redo

Shelved for today:
Everest 20
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 11
30 Days of Change 27
Express Tone 11
30 Days of HIIT 3

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - I am alive and okay.
:x: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

This day was very busy and I was just exhausted by the time I got home.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Friday, 7 March Wins: 137 days
:x: Journal
Steps: 11,132/8,500
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0520
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:v: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Foot rolly thingy

All the cleaning through a massive headache
Glutes, Quads, Hamstrings, & Calves

Shelved for today:
Everest 20
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 11
30 Days of Change 27
Express Tone 11
30 Days of HIIT 3

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - I got all the chores done and the house mostly tidied before guests came over.
:x: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

Started out the day just fine, other than being super hungry because of fasting bloodwork. Came home and just got to work on all the chores while I had a great big headache. It eventually went away, pretty much just in time for my brother-in-law and his girlfriend to get here.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Saturday, 8 March Wins: 138 days
:x: Journal
Steps: 8,458/9,230
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0600
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:x: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Foot rolly thingy

P (Robin) - 5m Warm Up Ride
P (Sam) - 20m 2010s Ride
P (Matt) - 5m Cool Down Ride
P (Jess K) - Post-Ride Stretch

Shelved for today:
Everest 20
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 11
30 Days of Change 27
Express Tone 11
30 Days of HIIT 3

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - I finished the craft cupboard.
:x: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

I was intending to use the bike ride as day 30 of 30DoC, but I couldn't get the second part in before everyone woke up and I was just too tired at the end of the day. But that's okay. At least I went for a ride and it was a pretty good ride.

It was a get stuff done around the house day. It was supposed to be D&D day, but having houseguests and a particularly loud one made it difficult to call in. So, while M and his brother were running all around the house fixing things, I finished putting together my craft cupboard. All the drawers are now installed, the cubbies set up, and the light switches command stripped to the side where it is easy to access. Now, to just put everything away.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Sunday, 9 March Wins: 139 days
:v: Journal
Steps: 5,817/8,980
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0500
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:x: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Foot rolly thingy

Zombies, Walk lvl 3
Express Tone 11 lvl 3 - 5lb
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 11
Soft Girl 1 set - cute, but my calves are burning a little
... a little while later...
Clean Break 1 set - also nice, but as I found out, my arms are also tired

Shelved for today:
Everest 20
30 Days of Change 27
30 Days of HIIT 3

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - My copy of Built to Last that got delivered to the wrong house yesterday was delivered to my house by a kind neighbor!
:v: Some ball foot rolling
:v: Evening Foot stretches

Not much happened today. It was a pretty quiet day. I meal prepped and I got the last of the laundry finished up.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Monday, 10 March Wins: 140 days
:v: Journal
Steps: 10,310/8,350
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0510
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:x: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Foot rolly thingy

Work:
30m morning walk => P (Matt) - 30m Heart Health Walk*
10m lunch walk => P (Jon) - 10m Post Meal Walk
Neck & Shoulders
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 12
Late afternoon work (but still at work because waiting for M):
2m calf raise hold -> 30 Days of Change 27 (2/2)
1m squat hold -> 30 Days of Change 27 (1/2)
2m side leg holds (1m each side) -> 30 Days of Change 27 (2/2)
1m squat hold -> 30 Days of Change 27 (2/2)
White Rabbit

Home:
2m elbow plank -> 30 Days of Change 27 (2/2)
2m side plank - supported (1m each side) -> 30 Days of Change 27 (2/2)
2m superman -> 30 Days of Change 27 (2/2) :v:
Express Tone 12

Shelved for today:
Everest 20
30 Days of HIIT 3

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - Today was good.
:v: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

*NOTE: Hey, this had some very interesting things from the guest cardiologist. Everything is connected. Your mind & your body. Your stress and your sleep. But what really stood out to me was that rest days are working days in the workout world. Without rest, our bodies don't get the chance to recover. So, what I am wondering is if it is a rest day if I work a different set of muscle groups. I sense that the answer is yes, but no. Yes, because of muscle groups. No, because sometimes you need to have the overall rest day. Ahh, but is an easy day the same as a rest day? Also, I felt like the need to get into mobility/yoga again brewing. I'm going to have to think on this some more. There are just too many thoughts running around my head right now. :panic:
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Today was alright overall. I was productive, I hydrated, and I didn't hyperfocus.

Tonight I am going to try something different. I am going to try calming things down for bed earlier. This is what I am going to try for the next three evenings, possibly four (depends on how Thursday goes). But I suspect that this will have a more positive effect on my sleep.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Tuesday, 11 March Wins: 141 days
:v: Journal
Steps: 1,016/8,550
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0450
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:x: Morning Foot stretches :sad:
:x: Foot rolly thingy

Work:
30 Days of Change 30 Part 1:
> P (Mariana) - 15 min Walking Body Scan Meditation - Before all the meetings
> P (Susie) - 15 min Classic Rock Walk - After all the meetings

Home:
Quick Warmup
30 Days of Change 29 lvl 3
30 Days of Change 30 Part 2 lvl 3 :completed:
Express Tone 13 lvl 3 - 5lb
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 13

The Walk Episode 15 redo 100%

Shelved for today:
Everest 20
30 Days of HIIT 3 I am not committed to this right now. Why am I tracking it?! I want to choose my new program fresh!

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - Today was not so good. But I did my best.
:x: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

All I can say is TOO MANY MEETINGS. But on the other hand, it finally rained.

Singing In The Rain Dancing GIF


:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
@Laura Rainbow Dragon @Fremen @Mamatigerj @Sólveig @Anek @NancyTree and everyone who celebrated: Thank you!! :lovelots:

Wednesday, 12 March Wins: 142 days
:v: Journal
Steps: 6,297/9,050
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0515 :break:
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:x: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Foot rolly thingy

I did stuff at work that included a walk and Calf Raises, but I left my sticky note of things at my desk. I will fill this in tomorrow.
P (Camila) - 10 min Post-Meal Walk
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 14

Shelved for today:
Everest 20
Express Tone 14

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - I called to check in on my mother.
:x: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

Well, it was a day of doing paperwork. I hyperfocused many times, but I left work in a decent mood. We got home earlier than expected (still later than usual, but we'll be back to normally scheduled programming tomorrow). I now have cookie batter in the freezer to bake in a bit. But I thought I would call my sister to check in. I didn't get an answer, so I then remembered that mom was in the hospital this weekend, so I thought that I would call her.

That's when it went downhill. I got snarked at so hard for not googling the procedure that she had done, which I probably should have, but when I got the message, I was talking to my sister in-law, who is a nursing student and she said that it wasn't something to be super worried about. So, I decided to google it later and I forgot. My bad. But then she and my stepfather went off on a tirade during which I apologized profusely, then they laughed about it, and the conversation continued like everything was fine.

It was not okay. I have been under so much stressed that it was just too much. I now have broken glass in the sink that I need to go clean up because I was putting a glass in the sink at the time and I put it in too hard. But then, she asks me why I am so tense at the end of the call. And again, I couldn't tell her that it was her fault. I played it off like work stress, which some of it is. I just can't seem to break the cycle. I was just calling to check in and see how she was doing. I am sorry that I don't have the spoons to handle it all right now.
:bigcry:

I'm back to feeling like Luisa again. ->
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breathe in, breathe out

Okay, so I think I'll start Momentum tomorrow. I took today as an easy day, and honestly, I am going to go eat dinner, wind down, and bake cookies for tomorrow's potluck.

Sorry, everyone for being such a mess and taking you all on my emotional roller coaster ride. I just needed to talk it out.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
I am sorry your mother and step-father treated you like that. You are correct: that was not okay. Neither the tirade, nor the pretending everything was fine once they decided it was. (I am, sadly, long familiar with that particular abuse of one party to a group exchange deciding to flip the tone from angry and accusatory to everything is fine, nothing to see here on a dime and demanding that everyone else go along with the flip. Creating upset and then demanding that people not be upset is a particularly insidious power play. I am sorry you were subjected to it.)

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Sorry, everyone for being such a mess and taking you all on my emotional roller coaster ride.
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Here you are free to feel what you legitimately feel.
:hug:
 
@Mamatigerj @Laura Rainbow Dragon :sadkitty::hereforyou: Thank you! The irrational anger then the flip to everything being okay was not something I am used to. It was very out of the ordinary. Usually, he takes a while to cool down. And mom, being bipolar, is usually so careful about what she says. I just feel so blindsided and used.

Thursday, 13 March Wins: 143 days
:v: Journal
Steps: 9,633/8,780
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0435
Good Morning Abs
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:v: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Foot rolly thingy

Quick Warmup
Momentum 1 lvl 3 - tbh, felt a little easy. But that's okay today. I can always add an extra workout card if I feel the need to push some.
Unbound r2 1 - r2 means round 2. I've done this one before, but I just wanted to pick some stretching that I didn't have to think about.
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 15

Shelved for today:
Everest 20 - TOMORROW. For sure, no excuses.
Express Tone 14 - I just wasn't feeling it today.

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - xxx
:v: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

Today was better. Work was okay. It was one of those weird days where I couldn't focus on things in the down times between meetings, but the potluck went fine. I brought my cookies in and it was a good thing too as it was the only dessert option that I could have. But I was able to eat enough and it seemed like everyone's spirits were a little higher, which was the whole point.

I did reach my sister and she says she's fine. But dad lives closer and he and my stepmom both see her far more frequently and he says he's worried. So, I'm not sure what to think. I just hope she's talking to someone. Because, she sure didn't really want to talk to me.

As for mom, she and I usually have a phone call on Fridays. But since I had such a negative phone call yesterday, I think I am going to skip tomorrow. I'll answer if she calls, but I am not going to engage. I need some cooling off time. Because when I get hurt, I get angry and sometimes I say things I regret. And while we do need to talk about it, I need to find the right words and how to say them. But I also know that I am the only one who knows that that conversation was a bad one. Couldn't even bring myself to tell my sister about it because I didn't want to burden her. My sister is going through a lot right now.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Friday, 14 March Wins: 144 days
:x: Journal
Steps: 4,446/8,870
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0600
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:x: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Foot rolly thingy

70 calf raises
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 16

Shelved for today:
Everest 20
Express Tone 14
Momentum 2
Unbound r2 2

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - I still tried my best
:v: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

Migraine day. I still tried to get things done but it was just awful. I got the laundry mostly done, I missed the weight loss doctor because I had the time wrong in my phone (and I would have sworn my time matched their time when they called to confirm), and I only managed to get half the things I wanted from the store (but they were the important things). It went away a little before bed, but I just did some calf raises and called it a rest day. I spent most of the day on the couch stitching.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Saturday, 15 March Wins: 145 days
:v: Journal
Steps: 7,422/8,430
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0720
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:x: Morning Foot stretches - nope running late
:x: Foot rolly thingy - nope running late

1.5h at fencing practice

Quick Warmup
Momentum 2 lvl 3 - This felt a little tougher today, definitely slower paced, and I might have done an extra set by accident
Unbound r2 2
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 17

Shelved for today:
Everest 20
Express Tone 14

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - I still tried my best
:v: Some ball foot rolling
:v: Evening Foot stretches - THIS I WILL DO. Lol, tbh, I need to anchor this habit again. Probably to dinner.

I am feeling a lot better today. I don't think my alarm went off this morning, so I was a little late to practice this morning. But A and I had a good time and I got some lovely time in the sunshine.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Sunday, 16 March Wins: 146 days
:v: Journal
Steps: 5,099/8,230
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0800
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:x: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Foot rolly thingy

Make up foot stretches around lunch time

Quick Warmup
EoD - 40 backfists
Momentum 3 lvl 3
Express Tone 16
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 18
Unbound r2 3

Shelved for today:
Everest 20
Express Tone 14

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - Stitching time and cleaner craft room.
:v: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

It has been a mostly quiet day. I stayed up too late last night because I just couldn't sleep. But I did some cleaning in the craft room and now it is far less claustrophobic feeling in there. So, now I've actually started to put things away. Progress has been made!

I'll get caught up again on reading everyone soon.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Monday, 17 March Wins: 147 days
:x: Journal - I hope to spend a little time here tomorrow.
Steps: 7,119/7,610
:x: 10m of writing - no, but I have been having thoughts

First Things:
0515
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:v: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Foot rolly thingy

Quick Warmup
EoD - 40 pacer steps
60 incline climbers -> Everest 20 (60/680)
Momentum 4 lvl 3
+ 60 incline climbers per set = 420 -> Everest 20 (480/680)
small break to get water and make a small mess in the kitchen doing so
80 incline climbers -> Everest 20 (560/680)
Express Tone 15 lvl 3 - 5 lb
+ 20 incline climbers per set = 100 -> Everest 20 (660/680)
20 incline climbers -> Everest 20 (680/680) :v:
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 19
Unbound r2 4

Also - The Walk Episode 16 100%

Shelved for today:
Express Tone 14

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - I did all the jumping jacks!!!
:v: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

I was mildly productive today. Unfortunately, I didn't get to make cottage pie tonight. Hopefully, I'll get to it tomorrow.

Jumping jacks weren't terrible at all. Well, other than the feeling of my tummy jiggling about while jumping. Never liked that sensation, but being able to actually do jumping jacks made me a little giddy with happiness. I actually worked on Everest this evening. Though, my glasses wanted to slide off my nose while doing it. I know that my blockage with completing it is totally in my mind, but I also know that I haven't been doing so great lately in my mind, so I am cutting myself some slack. It has been a crazy year already, even though we are only halfway through March. Now, to just keep up the momentum through tomorrow. ;)

In other news, I am toying with the idea of plotting a little. Not so much that I can't write the next story and know the end, but going back through the first book and building the world knowledge in a compendium. I think the word I've heard used is a story bible. This way, the details are easily referenceable and I can get submerged again. It will probably help me plot hole look in the first book too. Now, I am considering using software to help with this task, but I am unsure yet. I haven't done enough research yet. Also, I need to give myself permission to write in my bujo, or stuff another notebook in my bag just for writing on. I kinda wanted to write and I couldn't bring myself to use my bujo tody. Which is dumb. That is what it is there for. This is why I do one weeks spread at a time to have the space to write as much as I want. sigh, my silly brain.

I still haven't read everyone. I will try for that tomorrow. I love all of you, it's just been tough for me lately.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Tuesday, 18 March Wins: 148 days
:v: Journal
Steps: 8,285/7,520
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0450
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:v: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Cold foot roller

Work: 24m easy pace walk

Quick Warmup
Everest 21
Momentum 5 lvl 3
EoD - 30 W-extensions
Express Tone 18 lvl 3 - 5lb
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 20
Unbound r2 5

Shelved for today:
Express Tone (14)(17)19... Just could not do 14 today. Thighs were too sore. Swapped in 18.

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - I got stuff done at work and I kept up the momentum.
:v: Some ball foot rolling & cold roller
:x: Evening Foot stretches


Firstly, I made this comment yesterday:
Syrius said:
Now, I am considering using software to help with this task, but I am unsure yet.
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But I feel like I need to say that I want to use the software to help track things and make it easily searchable, not do the work for me.

Okay, now that is off my mind:

Today was pretty good. I got a lot of things done. My left arch was feeling a little sticky today, which was weird. (I've hurt my right plantar fascii, so this was an unwelcome change.) I know I haven't seriously hurt it, it was just complaining, like my thighs, about all the climbers. Now that I am typing this up, I am utterly exhausted. I am going to go to bed now.

Note to self, start ramping up for the extra early wake up time next week or you will be extra miserable. I've got to be at my desk for a training that starts at 5am my time, 8am in the time zone it is being instructed in, for M-W next week. So, I'm going to be taking the weekend to start getting used to being up earlier than I want to be.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Wednesday, 19 March Wins: 149 days
:v: Journal
Steps: 9,398/7,600
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0440
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:x: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Cold foot roller

Work: 25m fast pace walk

Quick Warmup
EoD - 30 squat hold calf raises
Momentum 6 lvl 3
Express Tone 17 lvl 3 - 5lb sets 1 & 2 - 8lb & 5lb triceps sets 3-5 - 8|8 on all tricep sets because the number 8 was stuck in my head from the previous two exercises
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 21 owww
Unbound r2 6

Shelved for today:
Express Tone (14)19 - no to 14 again, too sore
Everest 22 - No way, too sore

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - I came, I saw, and I worked out!
:x: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

Well, as I alluded to, I am sore. Glutes & thighs mainly. Lol, it will pass. Just makes walking interesting. Not much happened today and I've already stayed up a little later than I intended. Good night!

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Thursday, 20 March Wins: 150 days
:v: Journal
Steps: 7,156/7,960
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0400
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:x: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Cold foot roller

Quick Warmup
EoD - 10 jumping lunges
Momentum 7 lvl 3
Express Tone 19 lvl 3 - 8lb
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 22
Unbound r2 7

Shelved for today:
Express Tone (14)20 - no to 14 again, too sore
Everest 22 - No way, too sore

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - I got a haircut!
:v: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

I took the day off today to get some stuff done. I feel like I was productive enough, but I'll get more done tomorrow for sure. And I finally got caught up on logs.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Friday, 21 March Wins: 151 days
:v: Journal
Steps: 6,384/7,880
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0400
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:x: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Cold foot roller

I declare today Do What I Wanna day, partly because I am getting to this way too late.

Monk Mode lvl 3
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 23
EoD - 40 shoulder taps

Shelved for today:
Unbound r2 8
Momentum 8
Express Tone (14)20
Everest 22

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - I let myself have rest.
:v: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

Okay, it is hard to get stuff done when I am waking 5 hours ahead of M. But, it'll be better tomorrow.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Saturday, 22 March Wins: 152 days
:v: Journal
Steps: 10,159/7,580
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0400 - got step it back some more tomorrow
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:x: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Cold foot roller

The Final Bell lvl 3 - 980 points
+ 20 punches - 20 points -> 1000 points & logged

Quick Warmup
Momentum 8 lvl 3
EoD - 30 archers
Pro Boxer lvl 3 - 840 points
+ 10 punches - 10 points -> 850 points & logged
Unbound r2 8

Maxima lvl 3 - 700 points & logged
So, 2,550 points total today for the Light.

Shelved for today:
Express Tone (14)20
Everest 22
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 24

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - I got all my meal prep done and finished my laundry.
:v: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

I felt very productive today. I got a little cleaning done and I am very glad I got the meal prep finished. Just a little more cleaning tomorrow and I'll be all done with my weekend chores!! I've also gotten a good deal of stitching in and despite knowing that my fabric was appropriately sized, I am finally feeling like the project will fit properly.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Sunday, 23 March Wins: 153 days
:v: Journal
Steps: 7,930/7,840
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0330
Saitama lvl 3 - 1,200 points & logged
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:v: Morning Foot stretches
:v: Cold foot roller

Office Boxer - 1 set - 80 points
Boxer Arms - 630 points -> 710 points & logged

The Brawler lvl 3 - 2,940 points - I got distracted in set 6, so there's probably about another 180+ that I am not counting because I can't remember exactly where I was distracted.
I am Going to be Brave Today lvl 3 - 490 points ->3,430 points & logged
5,240 points total for the light today, 7,790 in total.

Shelved for today:
Express Tone (14)20
Momentum 9 - I did briefly hold a high plank after The Brawler. I think I'll leave this to tomorrow.
Unbound r2 9
Everest 22
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 24

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - I was okay today and felt very stable.
:v: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

My arms now so very tired. But, I have enjoyed doing combat workouts. I think if there is still time tomorrow, I'll do a katana workout. I have, however, discovered that I am hung up about doing kicks. Mostly because, I know that I am not up to snuff for doing a lot of kicks. But that is okay, with time, it will get better. I think I'm going to start adding in some more combat workouts. I have missed how they make me feel. Strong, capable, and brave. Also makes me want to pick a combat program next, but I think I might want to build up to that. But I think that exercises like this will help with the existential dread that has been seeping into my life as of late.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Monday, 24 March Wins: 154 days
:v: Journal
Steps: 7,148/7,860
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0310 - close enough!
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:x: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Cold foot roller

Work: P (Susie) - 10m Post Meal Walk

Come Back Faster lvl 3
SSO Survivor 1 set
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 24

Shelved for today:
Express Tone (14)20
Momentum 9
Unbound r2 9
Everest 22

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - Survived day 1 of the training.
:v: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

... I thought today was going to be day 3, the final day of the Battleground event, but I guess not? Well that's sad, I was looking forward to seeing the dark make their comeback and then fight back again. I guess we'll have to wait to get squashed by them next year. And now, I can enjoy some dark chocolate and black licorice without feeling bad about fighting on the side of the Light. ;)

Work was a lot of information today. My brain is feeling very full. And this whole waking up with EDT time is really weird. It, in combination with my ADHD, is just going crazy right now, messing with my time sense, which is bad in the first place. Time blindness is something that I struggle with, so this has been extra trying. I have literally had to do math every time I look at a clock to reaffirm myself that I am, indeed, on schedule. And that yes, it is okay to be hungry for lunch at 9am, because really, it is 12pm. :smash:I am enjoying the content, but I think I will be very glad when this course is over.

As for my workout, I just lacked a lot of motivation today and my arms are still a little tired. So, I convinced myself to do some cardio and I'll go for Momentum tomorrow. Though, I am fully accepting that I am thrown out of whack right now with this class, so I am trying to give myself a little grace.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Tuesday, 25 March Wins: 155 days
:v: Journal
Steps: 6,823/7,790
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0310 - close enough!
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:x: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Cold foot roller

Work: P (Jon) - 10m Post Meal Walk

Classic Warmup
Momentum 9 lvl 3
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 25
EoD - 30 plank leg raises
Express Tone 14 lvl 2 - 8lb - mod reverse lunges - legs said no to the fifth set
Unbound r2 9

Shelved for today:
Express Tone 20
Everest 22

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - I finally did day 14 of Express Tone.
:x: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

I got tired of Express Tone 14 hanging over me like a looming shadow. So, yeah, I finally did it and boy are my legs tired from all of this today.

I've got to say, I love the new spotlight on the plans!! It is so cool to see that you can just grab a plan and it already has a week planned out for you, you just got to fill it in like a build-your-own-adventure book!

Work was a lot again today and I think I might have a hormone driven headache tickling at the edges of things, but it makes sense for the time of the month. I just hope that it doesn't blossom into a full blown migraine tonight/tomorrow. I've still got a half day in this class tomorrow morning and I want to finish strong.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
@Sólveig @Fremen Thank you!! :lovelots:

Wednesday, 26 March Wins: 156 days
:v: Journal
Steps: 5,148/7,600
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0310 - close enough!
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:x: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Cold foot roller

==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 26
Glutes, Quads, Hamstrings, and Calves

Shelved for today:
Momentum 10
Express Tone 20
Unbound r2 10
Everest 22

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - I survived a full day of work with a migraine.
:x: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

The class is over and I still think that it was a valuable use of my time.

The migraine was not as intense as the hormone driven ones have been in the past. I am thinking that my renewed interest in making sure I drink all the water has had something to do with it. The pressure was lifting when I went to bed.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Thursday, 27 March Wins: 157 days
:v: Journal
Steps: 4,148/7,110
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0430 - back to normal!
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:x: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Cold foot roller

Classic Warmup
EoD - 10 heel hop clicks
Momentum 10
Express Tone 20
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 27
Unbound r2 10

Shelved for today:
Everest 22 - I am going to try for this tomorrow, depends on what my programs have in store for me.

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - I am feeling better today.
:x: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

I'm not at 100%, but I am definitely better. I am glad I didn't do Momentum yesterday, some of those exercises can make my headaches worse. And I was glad for the lighter day today.

In other news, I can hold the balls of my feet reaching over my feet while doing seated toe touches. That's new and it's both cool and weirded me out a little. For context, I couldn't touch my toes until I was a senior in high school. So, to have made this much progress is pretty neat.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
Friday, 28 March Wins: 158 days
:v: Journal
Steps: 6,075/6,520
:x: 10m of writing

First Things:
0630 - stayed up way too late
:v: First Thing Water ==mm==
:x: Morning Foot stretches
:x: Cold foot roller

2m march steps
==mm== 1000 Calf Raises 28
Cardio Step lvl 3

Shelved for today:
Everest 22
Momentum 11
Unbound r2 11
Express Tone 21

Last Things:
==mm== Counting Victories - I put stuff away in my craft room!
:v: Some ball foot rolling
:x: Evening Foot stretches

Low energy. I was not up to doing jumping jacks today. But that is a-okay. I still came and did something and I think that is the important take away.

:sendinglove: Keep on being awesome and I'll catch you next time!
 
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