today is sooooo much better!!
the fog has cleared!! my hang over is gone!! I actually had some energy and focus!!
the snow today gave me an excuse to not go to the gym but it didn't keep me from working out.
BE Foundations W1/D3 Shoulders & Triceps
15 min on my elliptical (i'm pretty sure the distance on my elliptical isn't accurate so i went for time)
DB shoulder press & db kick backs, DB upright row, lateral raises & bench dips, DB front raises, DB tricep extensions & 40 in and outs
my dumbbells were a bit light and definitely light for the tricep extensions.
also
EotD
End Game Workout
Hips and Glutes
about 1,600 kcal (20% carbs / 59% fats / 21% protein) calories are good. macros not as great - protein is low. while the kcal numbers are low, the carbs are mostly sugar. i am expecting that tonight's sleep will be disturbed - a fact that I didn't consider until after I ate the sugar. sometimes it takes time to overcome habits and mindlessness. one of the first steps for me in overcoming habits that don't work for me is realizing after the fact that i wasn't paying attention. i'll end up doing this a few times and then will start realizing while I"m making the mistake. finally, I will start thinking about it before I automatically grab the snack. i am certain that the additional factor of the night sweats will be motivating.
92 oz of liquid - nothing caffeinated today!! i actually am not certain this is low enough because I also had tomatoes and oranges today. I havent yet figured out how food impacts how much liquid I can have.
if you are still reading, settle in and grab the popcorn
since i am still trying to figure out what i can eat and drink and still feel good, days like today when i do are awesome!! i did have a little bit of a headache - prolly caffeine detox - but it didn't slow me down. i have figured out some of the rules. breads, pasta, heavy carbs put me to sleep. eating within 3 hours of trying to sleep is a bad idea. sugar is very bad. even some fruits, especially apples, will cause night sweats and sleep disturbances. snacking rather than eating a meal tends to end badly. good days are quality proteins, fresh vegetables, and good fats.
caffeine is bad, very bad. kick my a$$, shut me down, fall asleep at stop lights bad. did i mention that caffeine is bad? not when i have it but afterwards. everything revs up nicely when i am caffeinated and then i crash. hard. now add to this my "drinking problem" - which i used to joking explain as not enough hands. see i generally traveled through my day with 2 or 3 drinks. in the morning, coffee, water and soda; for the rest of the day, water and soda. and my water glass or soda bottle were never empty. its been a life long habit. when i was bar tending, i would have a 2-liter of soda and a pitcher of water with a straw in it. it was easier than always having an empty water glass. but now some part of my body just can't keep up.
when i drink too much water, i fill up like a water balloon. i tried to do the 75 Hard challenge. i couldn't do the water. i figured out that drinking 100 oz of water wasn't actually a problem - boring but not a problem - especially if i drank it at room temperature. and i gained 10 pounds in 2 days. just from the water. even my eyes were swollen. and i was exhausted. and since i had a lifetime habit of grabbing a something caffeinated when i was dragging a little bit, i made the problem worse. so much worse before i figured that out.
so far the blood work i've done is .. we'll say inconclusive. when i had electrolytes before the blood work, there were high levels of salt and magnesium in my results. when i was not recovering well after working out because i had too much water and was exhausted, the blood work looked like i was developing MS. after both of those, the subsequent test was normal.
from about Halloween through December, it all slowly rolled down hill. and that's the real problem. it sneaks up on me so i don't even realize how bad it is getting until i have night sweats that wake me 5 times in 4 hours, severe insomnia, edema, brain fog, pain and inflammation, weight gain, and extreme fatigue. like wake up, brush my teeth, sit at my computer to work and fall asleep only to wake up when my head hits the keyboard. you're right. it sounds like menopause. but apparently i am post menopausal. i skated through my actual menopause so lightly that i never even knew and now all the symptoms I didn't have then are ganging up on me.
and that's why i am counting how many ounces of liquid i consume. literally pouring things in a measuring cup to be certain (mostly because i discovered i was seriously underestimating how much i drink). i was feeling so awful that i finally concluded it is literally a matter of life or death.
so i am back here. in The Hive. where i know that there is no fat shaming or fit shaming. where somebody 6 months down the road might pop in and think it is strange that i can tell you exactly how many ounces of liquid i had in the day and not know how many calories but they will still celebrate my wins and offer me hugs when i am down. so thank you for having a space for me.
make yesterday jealous, friends.