October 2, 2024
♡ Yoga with Adriene 30 Day Yoga Journey Day 29
♡ Yoga with Adriene Meditation for Anxiety
I really hate 4-7-8 breathing. How are you only supposed to breathe in for that short amount of time and be expected to breathe it all out?
It has been so busy here. My dad had been having trouble with his balance, but my dad is kind of dramatic so we never know when he's faking something or when it's real. He had MRIs and CAT scans done, and our doctor could never see anything. Our doctor said it could be ALS, which is not a good diagnosis. We asked if it could have been a pinched nerve or something, and the doctor said that wouldn't do that. He referred my dad to a neurologist, which takes forever and my dad isn't allowed to go back to work without doctors approval. We got him to go to the emergency room where they did all kinds of tests and found out that he had a compressed spinal cord. It was so bad they doctors up there said most people who have their spinal cords like that are paralyzed. He had surgery on the 14th. I had to take him for walks after he came home. Now, I'm having to help him do his physical therapy. Which is fine.
Last week, my back started to feel sore. I had done yoga a couple days when I finally found time, and it didn't help the soreness in my back. Found out I was starting to come down with something, so I was taking it easy and drinking some tea to get better. The most I did was walk with my dad, which isn't a workout for me because we're going slow.
On Tuesday of that week, we had a freak hail storm. We weren't expected to have any severe weather, it had been nice all day, and then that happened. I don't like hail, but I'm usually okay with it. It usually doesn't trigger my anxiety that bad. But of course we get the text alerts (actually everyone else did. I turned them off on my phone), which triggers my anxiety. Okay, not great but just a severe thunderstorm with the obvious threat of hail. But we had been trying to watch Wheel of Fortune before it hit, and I saw on the news tornado alert. Wasn't in our area, but guess what that does to my anxiety? My therapist had given me a list of breathing exercises to try, and the easiest one to remember is the even breathing one. So I'm trying to do that because even though I know at this point it's just hail, my anxiety was spiked. Then my aunt comes over to tell me to breathe. Lady. What do you think I'm trying to do?
My therapist could tell that I had more anxiety than usual the next day. She had me do neurofeedback that day. She wasn't going to start trying that with me until later this year, but because of the wonderful storm we had...
This week she asked if I ever tried meditation. I told her I have in the past but I haven't in a while. So I'm trying to do that more. The goal is for me to "get as calm as possible" so I'm better prepared for our storm season.
Aunt DS also went to the hospital last week because of her smoking. This is like the third or fourth time she's gone to the hospital for that reason.
Through all this, I didn't have time for my diamond painting. I was able to write today and yesterday, so that's something.