This sounds really famliar to me. If only we wouldn't think so much of what other people might think...I've wanted to try it so many times, but always stopped myself out of fear that I'd be doing it wrong and people would think badly of me.
You also dealt with a lot of uncool stuff and still managed to lose some weight. You're doing very well!
It's strange how I will do well for a few weeks or months, and then just struggle really hard to get back on track.