Hi
I'm on day, ah, (checks) Day 7 of Push Pull Legs and the Deadhang Challenge.
My diet is still nightmarish.
Though I'm eating a bit more protein, I'm barely having any produce. It's all carbs and protein right now. I'm trying to get myself to eat fruit at least, but even that's a challenge. I tried making a smoothie again, but I tossed half of it because it was too sweet. Bleh.
An example of what I eat in a day:
Breakfast - Coffee and a microwaved brownie. (Yes, I know. What??) OR a PB sandwich
~Lunch - Maybe a banana and peanutbutter, or yesterday I had four boiled eggs. The day before I had 2 soy-beef patties.
Dinner - Another PBJ. Or if I decide to eat actual food and I've gotten myself far enough to cook, it's just meat. That's usually followed up with candy.
I cooked, like actually cooked, two nights ago. I made spinach from the garden, pumpkin. Those things are hanging around in the fridge, all by themselves. Wishing to be eaten. I'll probably feed them to my grandfather. I cook food for him and for my husband but then I don't eat along. I just eat crap when nobody's around even if the healthy food is THERE!
Or live on coffee all day and binge unhealthy carbs around 4PM.
I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. Or how to fix it. I just don't have the appetite for the "real" food. But my body is craving lots of carbs which means it wants energy (probably. And it probably wants it from real food).
I've asked my husband today to buy me some Futurelife. It's an instant porridge, and it's kind of pricey but it's like eating a multivitamin in porridge form. It's got all the vitamins and minerals, probiotics and its high in protein and low in sugar. I used to like eating it with lentils and split peas (pulverised in the nutribullet). So I'll see if maybe that gets me back on track. I'm still taking my B-co too.
This situation reminds me of a book I've read where the girl lives on nothing but candybars and coffee. Then the guy force feeds her protein shakes and real food. And tells her to "Feed the woman first, then you can feed the child later".
But there's no one around to forcefeed me but me
I don't know how to get past this...whatever 'this' is.
What do I do?
Edited to add - So I've just discovered that when you pulverise cooked Chickpeas into a powder in the nutribullet, and you add that powder to a little peanutbutter and some water to make like a thick paste... it's really really yummy.