Thanks for the birthdaywishes!
I am struggling.. with work, with running, with working out, with life changes.
At work I'm struggling with my colleages. Shortest version is that for months I'm sort of blamed for their incompetence; not that I cause their incompetence, but because they find the work hard, I should get rid of the 'problem' (while I expect them to take responsibility for the incompetence).
And now also one (new) colleage wants to take over my job, has a strong opinion about it (stating that I should do it differently), without even knowing how this job looks like.
I need this job at least for another year, so I hope I can endure this and hold ground... because I am good at my job, I'm sure about why and how I do things, and I don't want to allow a parasite like this ruining it. She's not hired to do my job, but hers.
With the change of the season, I couldn't get myself out for a run. The only thing I wanted to do after work, was crouch away on the couch under a blanket. I am trying to get back on track, without injuring myself; in the past this has been the beaking point: losing consistency and then going too fast. I hope I will make it to the 500 km goal for this year (120 km left in 2 months).
I am hiking long distances though. I started with a round trip of 375 km, split in 19 stages of 9 to 20 km.
And I'm slowly getting through 30 days of cardio.
And I bought a new (old, awesome and cute) house, but the financing is a problem (because of side issues, not because I couldn't afford it) and I only have a week left to get approval. This gives me a lot of stress. Also the whole process of getting my current house ready to be sold, going through all memories I buried, and my boyfriend going abroad during this time so I feel pretty alone.